The idea for this post came to me in one small second, but I think it’s such an important remark to show you, because it absolutely changed my whole life. This big change is connected with body positivity and my thinking about my body, weight etc.
Before this exchange in France I need to say that I accepted my gain weight, but I was still spending some time on scrolling through Instagram accounts of thin vegan girls or watching videos on YouTube like “how to not gain weight on HCLF diet” or “how to lose weight on HCLF diet”. And what’s an important thing too-I was strict in following high carb LOW FAT vegan diet. I stopped eating peanut butter (because I thought it’s too fatty) and I was still thinking how much fats I ate that or that day.
My departure changed everything because I couldn’t anymore be focused on my diet so much, I had many different worries, problems and things to think about, so I got much more laid-back about my diet and for example I came back to eat peanut butter, because I knew that it can be a very good source of fats especially here on exchange when I don’t have time and also possibility to search for different sources of fats during grocery shopping.
But what I want to tell you in this post is that I’m finally free and I can say it with 100% certainty! <3 I don’t care anymore about my weight, size of my thighs or my belly. I love every single part of my body and I’m happy that I can announce you that. I don’t spend hours anymore on thinking how my body looks, looked and will look. It’s to big to say it aloud, but I feel almost like before my ed :)
Thank you so much for following my journey, today I saw an amazing number on Instagram-2k of you watching my progress and life <3 I love every single one of you and I’m sure it’s not the end, but just the beginning of changes in my life :)